When times change GET BOLD

in Motherhood

Well I’ve been afraid of changing

‘cause I built my life around you

But time makes you bolder

Children get older,

I’m getting older too.

(Landslide, Stevie Nicks)

 I’ve heard this song countless times since I grew up in the 70s, but in the last year, these lyrics resonated with me for reasons I didn’t comprehend. Yes, I was getting older (and yes, those are gray hairs.)  And yes, the Lord was leading me to quit my decade-long gig of homeschooling which really did feel like a life encircled by my children–all day, everyday. But there was more to it.

As much as I needed change to shake me from the burnout I was living, I was afraid of changing. I can see that now. Now that I have changed.

Something happened after I turned forty a few years back. My perspective became clearer. And there were things I saw that I didn’t like. Things in myself. Things in my life.

There were dreams drying with the dishes. And I knew I didn’t want to face the same life, the same me in the mirror when fifty rolls around.

Maybe it’s the stuff midlife crises are made of, except it didn’t involve the usual sordid details. And it won’t. I’m crazy in love with my husband and these half dozen blessings.

But I felt brave for the first time in decades. Ready for something else. Ready to take the blind leaps of faith that would usher in change. It was exhilarating, really.

It reminds me of the “I-can-conquer-the-world” college graduate I was back in the 90s. The ideals were big and the means were small, but that didn’t stop me. In fact, it started me.

So mamas, I say all this so that you won’t fear the future. Embrace new seasons. Try new things. Don’t be afraid to chase after a dream or to pick up the one God places on your path. It might seem impossible or crazy or risky, but be bold with the life you’ve been blessed with. God loves to do new things with his girls. Listen for His voice guiding you, uniquely laying out a path for you. Sure, it might be mocked or even scorned by those who fear change, but small minds just do that.Don’t let it deter you. God is in the business of bold, big dreams. Keep your eyes on Him.

 

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Jennifer Dawn McLucas July 27, 2012 at 7:49 pm

Times are changing for me too. Ironically, one of the changes is to start homeschooling- one of those things I swore I’d never do. But we’ve also got a new child in our home that we’re adopting and I feel like my oldest is withdrawing too fast and I need to pull her back in closer- before it’s too late. So it’s a new season. At first I was afraid, but now, I’m really kind of excited about it. :)
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Melissa Morgner August 1, 2012 at 1:02 am

Jennifer,
So excited for you! You have such the right heart motive and I know God will honor that. Blessings to you as you start this new venture. I hope you’ll poke around here at Half Dozen Mama for some good homeschool insights and resources.

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Vicki Davidson Jones August 3, 2012 at 10:34 pm

Melissa – I LOVE your blog! It is so “you” and perfect! I loved this post in particular esp. since I am starting a new season myself and I felt exactly the same way! I am so happy for you Melissa! Blessings – Vicki

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Melissa Morgner August 8, 2012 at 10:27 pm

Vicki–thank you so much for taking time to come and read here! Isn’t it funny? We keep starting these new seasons together? Even though we live so far apart. I’m excited for your new chapter beginning too. Big hugs sweet friend!

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Lorrena August 10, 2012 at 5:13 am

Melissa

This was very encouraging to me today. Fear not Jesus said it so many times yet we all still fear change. Going through change in our change of this past year if that makes sense is challenging. But I know the Lord is with us all as we embark on our changes.. Hugs :) miss you.

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Connie August 13, 2012 at 3:49 pm

Being 20+ years older than you, I can tell you there will be more seasons that change and questions about tomorrow and how to spend our time with an eternal perspective and what should I be doing at this time in my life. Yet, God is faithful to open doors and guide our footsteps. I know He is guiding yours as its bearing fruit!

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Jessica Krom September 18, 2012 at 3:22 pm

I read this post a while back and came to reread it today. I so needed these words as we struggle to decide the best path for our kids. I know that God is leading me to put the kids in school (some of them at least), but my hubby is not on board. There are just so many challenges and I know they would thrive in a school environment. Thank you for your words of encouragement.
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Jennifer November 10, 2012 at 4:10 pm

I can relate to changes!! I have six children as well ages 17, 16, 13, 8, 6, and 3. I home schooled the older 3 for 10 years. I also felt overwhelmed and knew it was time for a change. My older two started public high school when they reached 9th grade and it has had its challenges, but overall a decent experience. There is so much “crap” that they have encountered in public school, and we have had to work through those challenges, and sometimes I wondered if I made the wrong choice, but they are now stronger in their faith!! My 13yo is at a very small Christian School, because that is what she wanted, and she needed a strong academic challenge. My 8, and 6 year old were also in public school, until last week. My older children ecouraged me to homeschool them at least through elementary and possibly jr high. They all said that they are VERY grateful for the foundation that was given to them, and the time to just be a kid and be able to play. I felt the Lord leading me to bring my littles home too, and they just confirmed it. I just wanted to encourage anyone going through seasons of change…. I honestly thought my homeschooling years were over.. but am now SO EXCITED to get back to it. I KNOW I needed those few years of everyone in school! I needed the break it gave me and that is ok. Blessing to you all!!

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Melissa Morgner November 10, 2012 at 4:46 pm

Jennifer,
So glad you shared your story. Everyone’s journey is so unique and how God guides us is the real key. It’s neat to see that you’re excited to homeschool again especially when you thought you were done. I think the trap many of us fall into is seeing the means as the end instead of just being led by the Holy Spirit with each decision. I pray you are filled up as you start your homeschooling season again.
blessings,
melissa

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